Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Radiohead and Ghosts: Redux

Yesterday I was sifting through the archives, looking at some of my favorite posts for a project I'm working on. As I read entry after old entry, I stumbled upon one of my favorite posts that I had forgotten about. Radiohead and Ghosts. I really liked the whole setup of the (true) story, they way the Radiohead segues into a ghost story.

Back when I originally wrote I didn't give it the time and effort it deserves. So last night, I gave it a complete re-write and I think it's a zillion times better then before and I'm very proud of it.

So, ladies and gentlemen, may I please present to you:

Radiohead and Ghosts: Redux.

I don't know about you, but I absolutely adore Radiohead. They deserved every bit of critical praise they got for OK Computer. They’re one of those bands that don’t necessarily fit in to any sort of musical genre. The fact they can go from a rock number to an electronic synth song to a jazzy piano based song, in a single album in my mind, makes them perhaps the greatest band of all time

Ok, I’m done ranting.

OK Computer was on of those albums that sort of changed my outlook on music, it was the album that taught me that everything didn’t have to have a ton of distortion or that a piano could rock just as hard as a distorted guitar. I bought the album when it came out and listened to it once or twice and forgot about it. Put it away to collect dust on my metal rack filled with other CD's. This was during my “if it didn’t sound hard, then it sucked” phase.

When my mom bought me my first iPod, a huge brick with a tiny storage space by today’s standards anyway, but at the time it was the coolest thing ever. I still have that iPod sitting in a drawer somewhere in this house.

I remember coming home and plugging in my shiny new toy in to my iBook and waiting for my wonderful new music player to fill up with music. It didn’t take very long, seeing as I had no music on my little laptop. One of the first CD’s I imported was Radiohead’s ‘OK Computer’. I unplugged the thick firewire cable from the iPod and firmly planted my Grados over my ears and heard something I have not heard in a long time.

Good music.

For some unknown reason, every song on that album took me back to another time in my life, as I sat in my dark room, listening to Thom singing about an airbag saving his life. I realized that I grew up with this album. Let me explain.

Paranoid Android forever reminds me of cracking up with Mitch on the phone at 2 A.M. while watching the video. Karma Police reminds me of the time we all went to Bridgette's house the day after Halloween, sitting with Michael JP’s and Tom (Not Thom, Mutsy Tom.) in the car he had just bought. It was a mid-seventies Mercedes, cream color with matching interior. All the while Karma Police was playing on the radio as we drank vodka straight out of the bottle talking about life, girls and our futures.

It was also the first time I’ve ever encountered something that I couldn’t explain. That night I had a paranormal experience.

Mutsy, Michael and I were coming back from the gas station down the street from Bridgette's house. They’d run out napkins and paper towels so they sent us feeling that we would be able to fulfill such a menial task with the least amount of commotion.

Let me mention that Bridgette lives at a place called 'Devil's Slide'.

As we walked back, paper towels and napkins in hand, it was dark and yes, we were semi-drunk. Stopping dead in our tracks it was there, standing in front of the driver’s side window of that old cream color Mercedes, was a tall black shadowy figure peeking its head in the window. Our bodies had become paralyzed with fear, frozen like deer caught in headlights. I had never felt such a chill go up my body as I did when I the shadowy figure. I still get chills thinking about today and, yeah, I just got ‘em just now.

As we stood there frightened by God-knows-what standing between us and the house, we looked at each other
and looked back to the cream color Mercedes and in and instant, it was gone.

I turned my head to Tom and Michael, barely able to get the words out of my mouth, I cracked a nervous smile "Did you see that?!" I said.

Their silence assured that my eyes were not playing tricks on me.

We were so petrified that we didn't know if we should run away, run back to the house or stay still.

We ran.

Like scared woman, I don't think I’ve ever ran so fast in my life. We ran into the kitchen and stood there, looking at each other, knowing that the three of us had seen something that we would never be able to fully understand or explain. We stood there for about three minutes, panting and shaking, until I started laughing. The nervous laughing broke the uncomfortable silence that had been permeating since we had seen what ever it was that made its presence known to us that night.

As the tension eased off, we started talking about what we just witnessed. We agreed that we seen the same tall, dark shadowy figure. Over six-feet tall and dressed in all black, its back was slightly hunched over. It seemed as if it was trying to break in to the car. I remember at the time I was explaining it as the fisherman from “I Know What You Did Last Summer”. I suppose there could be some sort of logical explanation to it, high EMF’s (Electro-Magnetic-Fields), random group hallucination, semi-drunkenness. Hell, I don’t know. And I probably never will. I know I chose to believe what I saw that night and what I saw was not of this world.

The thing that made it so bizarre and assures me to this day that it was a real paranormal experience, was that three of us saw it, showing it self to us just long enough to make us think there something else out there in this world, then it was gone.


Tuesday, May 30, 2006

about me

I was born on a cold February morning in 1984. I grew up pretty sheltered from the world and thought everything about it was honky-dory, then I grew up.

I became interested in politics and trying to help the enviroment. I'm a card-carrying member of the ACLU and a member of the fuck GWB movement (I just made that up).

I've always wanted to make films for as long as I can remember, I've made countless short films, mostly my own brand of 'Homedys' which are Horror Comedies, they're funny and if you've never seen any of them, well, I don't have to tell you do you?

The whole filmmaking thing never really worked, something about having to graduate film class and plus you need lots of cash. So, blogging came around and I officaly became a blogger/writer.

I also love music, anything that's NOT played on MTV gets my vote for good music. In fact, if you've never heard or you don't understand it, then I LOVE it.

It shouldn't have to be mentioned that I love computers and the online. I've been using computers since I was a little kid. My first computer was a C64, it used giant 5.25" floppys and I had like three hundred floppys of illegal software, and I was like around the age of eight-years old.

In 2002 I married my wonderful wife Lila. We're expecting our first child at the end of 2006.

Friday, May 26, 2006

kid a

I wake up to a dark room, the only light source in the entire room is the small pulsating white light on my Powerbook. The sun has started its daily mission of cracking the night sky yet the birds were singing their wake-up song signaling the start of the new day, I desperately tried with all my strength to lift up my arm and check my watch.

"Six-thirty," I thought to myself. "I'm going back to bed."

A few hours later the morning sun shines through the tiny slits of the vertical blinds of our bedroom window and hits me directly in the eye. My eyes spring open and I realize what day it is. Today is our second visit to the doctor and today we're scheduled to hear the baby's heart beat for the first time.

I get out of bed at around 10:30am and realize that I have nothing to do for the next five hours except wait for time to pass by until 3:15pm. I decide to pass time by going to the gym and work out for a while and hopefully calm my nerves while passing time.

I sit on the edge of the coffee table in the front room and tie my shoes, my mind is a million miles away. Lila walks by me stops and kisses me on the forehead and smiles at me, her big hazel eyes (She says they're brown, but they're more hazel. I should know, I look at them all the time) look in to my eyes and we know this is perhaps the most important day of our lives.

I drop Lila and Patina off at the office and I drive for what seems like forever to the gym. The gym is filled with the same people I've seen the last two days. The slightly chubby college student, the old man who just had gastric bypass surgery, the middle-aged woman who can run five times faster and longer then I will ever be able to in my entire life.

I hop off the treadmill and look at the huge clock on the wall. "Two-fifteen, shit!" I think to myself as I pull the earbuds out of my ear and wipe the sweat from my forehead as I begin to painfully jog back to my car.

I drive back home at 129 miles-per-hour and make it back home in whats seems like three minutes. I toss my ultra smelly gym clothes in the washer and take a shower at the speed of light. My foot barely has a chance to touch the green bath rug in front of the shower door when I hear the phone ringing. I finish drying myself off and race to answer the phone. It's my mother.

"Are you almost ready?" She asks me.

"Uh... Yeah, I just have to put on my shoes," I tell her.

"OK, I'll be there in ten minutes."

"OK, see you in a few minutes."

I hang up the phone and finish getting dressed. It's 2:45pm and I'm starting to get anxious. I feel a swarm of butterflies crashing around in my stomach as a million thoughts run through my head.

Will the baby have a normal heart beat? Will the baby be in the right place? Will it even have a heartbeat?

It's 2:55pm and I'm standing outside of my car waiting for my mom to pick me up. She's taking way too long.

It's 3:10pm and we've just picked up Lila and Patina.

Oh man, we're going to be late and they're not going to let us hear our baby's heart beat.

Much to my relief, we make it in time and they seem happy as ever to see us, we've only been there twice, yet they're always warm and welcoming to us. I suppose I'm used to urgent care doctors who are always in a rush and just pump you with drugs.

A nurse peeks her head out from the hallway in to the waiting room and calls out my name.

"That's me," as I raise my hand as if I were in third grade.

"You can come back in the room now."

I stand up from my chair and look at my mother as she half-reads some parenting magazine. I can only imagine the thoughts that are going through her head, the emotions she's feeling at this particular moment. I know she's probably just as nervous as me. She looks up at me and smiles and I can see her barely holding back the tears.

The nurse and I walk down the narrow corridor to room two and I lightly push open the door, Lila is standing nervously looking around the room, when our eyes lock we both smile. I walk toward her and take her in to my arms and kiss her, the two of us giggling like school girls.

Lila sits on the table as I pace around the room like a father waiting for his child to be born.

“Hello?" I hear from behind the door.

"Yes come in," Lila say to her.

The doctor comes in like the ball of energy she is. She's a short Asian woman with a very heavy Asian accent, it's very hard to understand what she says most of the time, but her laugh is infectious and I end up laughing with her and I don't know why.

"Are you ready to hear the baby's heart beat?" She says to us.

"Yes!" Lila and I exclaim in unison.

Lila lays back on the table and the doctor pulls out what looks like a tricorder from Star Trek and jabs Lila deep in her abdomen with the strange blue device.

OK, that's stomach noise, no heart beat yet. Yeah, Lila you have to relax. More sloshing sounds, but no heart beat. OK, I'm freaking out!


“That my baby's heart beat,” I say to my self as I start giggling uncontrollably and hoping around in the tiny little examination room. I look at Lila and she is smiling and laughing.


My eyes are fixated on the little blue microphonic device as my eyes being to water, my eyes shifting between Lila's face and the blue tricorder.

"My baby has a heart beat," I think to myself. "Thank you!"

The whole process last less then three minutes and the doctor is gone, on to the next expectant couple awaiting their first child, or maybe their fourth. I don't know. Lila stands up and we embrace and touch foreheads and smile from here to Texas. We're going to be parents. I made a baby!

The nurse at the window says her next appointment will be in four weeks and that she should get plenty of rest and to call them if we have any questions and we're on our way.

The air is hot outside, the sky is clear and I'm the happiest man on earth. I look at my wife, who's still smiling and I look back to the sky.

I turn to Lila and she looks at me and I think to myself "Thank you."

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Blogger Poker Tournament

Yeah, I registered for a bloggers only poker tournament. It's on June 19th. I'm super excited to play, I have a feeling the playing field is going to be huge and I'll probably end-up Gigli'ing the thing, but it'll be fun to play some free poker.

This is the second year PokerStars has done this and yay for them! That's one of the reasons why I play on PokerStars, they really make it feel like a community and seeing them support bloggers is super awesome as well.

Click the link below to find out more about the tourney.

Stay tuned to this blog, I'll have a big announcement later.

Texas Holdem Poker

I have registered to play in the PokerStars World Blogger Championship of Online Poker!

This Online Poker Tournament is a No Limit Texas Holdem event exclusive to Bloggers.

Registration code: 7330476

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Four Eyes

In about an hour I'll be at my local Costco Wearhouse, getting my eyes checked.

I've worn glasses for quite a while, it's just that prescription I've always had made close-up viewing difficult, I could never watch TV and read a magazine at the same time without taking off my glasses.

Lately my eyes have been getting worse and my current prescription has been failing and not quite as sharp as they used to be thus defeating the whole purpose of having glasses in the first place.

I don't know if maybe I strain my eyes too much by looking at computer monitors, or if I'm just getting old, but my eyes are going, and they will be missed.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

The New MacBooks are Here!

Apple Computer has released their new upgrades to the venerable iBook.

Dubbed simply the MacBook, it's basically a 13" version of the MacBook Pro. In fact, the only noticable difference I can detect, power wise, is a slightly slower proc. Which, I can deal with.

Display The machine has a 2ghz DuoCore Intel proccessor and half-a-gig of ram (upgradable to 2gb). I'm seriously considering selling off the old TiBook for one of these. I simply am in love with the black, but the white is so classic and I honestly don't think black is worth the extra $200 bucks.

AppleInsider has some great photos of the new MacBook taken at a Apple Store. Argh, I want one so bad.

Hey, click the ad links and if you don't have Firefox installed on your (Windows based) system, click the Firefox link on the right and install, which in turn will put $5 bucks in my pocket!

The New MacBooks are Here!

Apple Computer has released their new upgrades to the venerable iBook.

Dubbed simply the MacBook, it's basically a 13" version of the MacBook Pro. In fact, the only noticable difference I can detect, power wise, is a slightly slower proc. Which, I can deal with.

Display The machine has a 2ghz DuoCore Intel proccessor and half-a-gig of ram (upgradable to 2gb). I'm seriously considering selling off the old TiBook for one of these. I simply am in love with the black, but the white is so classic and I honestly don't think black is worth the extra $200 bucks.

AppleInsider has some great photos of the new MacBook taken at a Apple Store. Argh, I want one so bad.

Hey, click the ad links and if you don't have Firefox installed on your (Windows based) system, click the Firefox link on the right and install, which in turn will put $5 bucks in my pocket!

Thursday, May 11, 2006


Current Location:My Couch
Eye Color:Green
Hair Color:Brown
Right Handed or Left Handed:Righty
Your Heritage:Jewish-Polish
The Shoes You Wore Today:Chuck Taylor's
Your Weakness:My Knees
Your Fears:Bees
Your Perfect Pizza:Olives and Canadian Bacon
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Win the lottery, start a band
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:shut up
Thoughts First Waking Up:"Oh god..."
Your Best Physical Feature:Eyes
Your Bedtime:Right now
Your Most Missed Memory:I cherish all of them
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:MickeyD's
Single or Group Dates:Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:Coffee
Do you Smoke:Nope
Do you Swear:Yes
Do you Sing:Yes
Do you Shower Daily:Yes
Have you Been in Love:Yes
Do you want to go to College:Yes
Do you want to get Married:Already am
Do you belive in yourself:I suppose
Do you get Motion Sickness:Hell yes
Do you think you are Attractive:Attractive enough to land a wife.
Are you a Health Freak:I'm starting to be
Do you get along with your Parents:Yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:Love 'em
Do you play an Instrument:Quite a few, Guitar, Bass, Drums and a little keyboards
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:No
In the past month have you Smoked:Nope, don't plan to ever
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Antibiotics
In the past month have you gone on a Date:No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yes, too much.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Nuh-Uh
In the past month have you been on Stage:No
In the past month have you been Dumped:No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:I'm sure I have
Ever been Drunk:Yes
Ever been called a Tease:Nope
Ever been Beaten up:Nope
Ever Shoplifted:I think
How do you want to Die:Old
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Writer
What country would you most like to Visit:England
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Brown
Favourite Hair Color:Brown/Red
Short or Long Hair:Doesn't matter
Height:I don't really care
Best Clothing Style:Hipster style
Number of Drugs I have taken:0
Number of CDs I own:80-90?
Number of Piercings:Zee-roe
Number of Tattoos:Nada
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Nothing


Friday, May 5, 2006

it has come

Well, I've got it I don't know exactly what it is, but I know it's comming. It started with a weird feeling in the back of my throat two days ago, and it hasn't lightened up since and that pisses me off.

I tried fighting it with Airborne and warm salt water, but that only pushes back it for a few minutes.

I tried sending it back to hell by making myself believe that I wasn't sick and making myself go through my regular day activity, that worked for a while, but it and its evil forces whiped my ass into submission this morning.

So, I'm probably going off to the Urgent Care and get me some meds and some rest.

You know, I've been dreading going to the doctor, but typing out the above sentence made it sound kind of nice.

Tuesday, May 2, 2006

Save the Net

The net is in danger and it needs our help. The following is from
Please, go to and sign the petition.

The following was taken from the MoveOn website;

On April 26, a congressional committee caved to companies like AT&T, voting to give them more control over what you do and see online.
Since then, Congress has seen a popular revolt: 250,000 petition signatures, thousands of phone calls, groups like MoveOn and Gun Owners of America working together for Internet freedom, 1,500 blogs rallying the public, and even actress Alyssa Milano supporting our efforts on her blog. Because of intense public pressure, some members of Congress have already switched publicly from AT&T's side to ours!

The House will vote on whether to preserve Internet freedom in early May, and a Senate vote will follow shortly after. Now's the time to turn up the heat.

Basically, what it comes down to is the more money you pay to the big guys (AT&T, Verizon, Comcast etc.) the faster a webpage loads, thus making it unfair to the little guys like us, the bloggers, the artists, the weirdos, the cartoonists, the people who make a living from their website, the people who believe in country founded on the basis of freedom.

If you think this wont affect you? Well, let me give you a scenario of what the web might be like if this law passes. Say you download an album from iTunes, well if this law stays in effect, Comcast could purposely slow down the speed of the download and even redirect to their own higher priced music service.

That's just one of the horrible situations that could take place if we don't eradicate this. I've been against quite a few things in my life that goverment has made us suffer through, the war, W, but this is something I will not tolerate.

Please, I beg of you. Go to sign the petition, call congress, write about this in your blog. Do something. We must not let this happen. We've already screwed up things so much as it is, why screw this one up too?

UPDATE: here's a collection of links that you can use to help.

Key Links

Save the Net Now

MoveOn petition. (Please include - each signer will get future action items.)

Call Congress today.

Original MoveOn email describing the issue.

How gutting Net Neutrality affects regular people (Ipod users, Google users), and proof that telecom companies abuse their power.

Actress Alyssa Milano blogs on Internet freedom.

Our coalition MySpace profile – including a video explaining this issue (please include).

Coalition website (please include – mentioning our partners Gun Owners of America and Craig from Craigslist).

Coalition blog – good recent developments.

A key House committee already voted against Internet freedom. See if your representative is on this committee.

Find out where your representative stands.

Good Articles

"Gun Owners, Librarians Unite Against Bells," Telephony Online, April 24, 2006

"New Group Aims to ‘Save the Internet’" CNet News, April 24, 2006

"Average Joe And Saving The Internet,", April 24, 2006  

"Net Losses," New Yorker, March 20, 2006

"Panel Vote Shows Rift Over 'Net Neutrality'" Los Angeles Times, April 27, 2006

"Save the Internet," Jeff Chester article on, April 27, 2006